The sight I saw took my breath away, and took me a few moment to process what was happening. Caden was standing beside the jacuzzi screaming, and there was water spraying with great force EVERYWHERE!!!! Caden had tried to get in and accidentally turned the jets on to the jacuzzi. The water was spraying with such power like a fire hose, all over the wall, the door, a lounge chair and all over our opened suit case which was already at its max weight limit of 50lbs. All I could do for the longest was stand there in shock, just taking it all in, not sure where to go what to do. Just completely lost in that moment all I could see was water, WATER EVERYWHERE!!! I think if I had screamed no one would have even heard me from the sound of all the water spraying. Finally I was able to snap out of the shock and grabbed a towel and held it up like a shield in front of the main jet that was spraying all over the wall, chair and suitcase. I stood there trying to look past the water being sprayed in the face by the jet, trying to find the off button. But I couldn't see it anywhere, after a few moments and being completely drenched I yelled over the sound of crashing water to Caden and told him he needed to hold the towel so I could go around to the other side and see if I could find the off button. Yes I know what your thinking, I did indeed make my poor baby boy the human shield. Caden held up the towel as high as he could as he was being violently pelted with water, I ran to the other side of the tub slipping and falling on the mounting water laying on the slick floor. I crabbed the side of the tub and pulled myself off franticly searching for the off button. I couldn't find it anywhere!! The panic had engulfed my tired and drenched body. In the mist of it all, I saw a small little plastic sign, I calmed myself and ignored the hurricane going on around me to read the directions. "To turn on/off push silver button." I started to hit and slap everything on or around the jacuzzi that was silver in true caveman fashion. I pulled the plug out to drain the water, but it didn't seem to help.I called the front desk but no one answered. I was about to cry and give up I rested my hand on the side of the tub and then everything stopped. The on/off button was the size of a postage stamp. When I rested my hand on the side of the tub I had hit the tiny thin little button. Once the water had stopped spraying I looked around and saw all the water all over the wall from floor to ceiling, a soaked lounge chair, a pool of water standing on all our soaked clothes in our suit case and a very soggy carpet. I was terrified on what the hotel people would say, how much was this going to cost. I called my husband in tears, and he encouraged me to call the front desk and just be honest with them about what happened, his theory was they were going to find out sooner or later. I tried to call the front desk and again no answer, so I looked around and came up with a plan. I grabbed all the towels out of the bathroom and wiped down the walls and then put them on the floor. And like a big jerk , on the late night after my sisters wedding I called my brand new brother in-law and sister who were packing for their honeymoon and preparing for a very early flight, to see if they could dry our clothes in there drier. I wouldn't have minded taking them wet, but new with all the water it wouldn't be under 50lbs. After my brother in-law came and picked up the clothes {and I felt so bad, sorry Rachel and Jeff love you} I took the hotel's tiny hair drier which was mounted and tied to the wall in the bathroom and for almost 4 hours I stretched the cord as far as it would go, an blew dried the chair and carpet.
But isn't life like that sometimes, things are going smoothly and then your blind sided and things start going crazy falling apart around you. Since I last wrote, my husband still hasn't found full time work, lost our health insurance, car troubles, had a very impressive flood of water rain down from the upstairs apartment causing damage to the cabinets and counter tops which their now going to have to rip out the whole kitchen to replace. We had a over a week where we had snow on the ground which cause a bunch of rats to take over the apartment unit, and they ate through 3 dish washers including mine and the reason for the flood. Sadly some of our food mainly cereal and dog food were taken in the flood or by the rats. One ER visit with a grandmother thinking she may be having a stroke. Then I was slammed with vertigo right in the middle of Sunday night bible study which also happened to be the same day as the of the flood. Caden had a horribly traumatic time at the pediatrics office where we failed his hearing and vision tests. And got several vaccines which cause fever and sever trembling and over all yucky feeling. And then we woke up early one morning hearing our little girl puppy dog Miley struggling to breath, and then watching her fall over from a seizure and later having to put her down cause she was too sick to recover. Too much more to mention. It seems as though everything is falling apart and going crazy around us, but strangely enough, we have felt Gods supernatural peace and comfort through this time. And what would normally freaked us out, or torn us down we see Gods hand through it all.
One way I can explain is our house was a mess in every room {which lets face is more times then not}I spent all day cleaning the whole house except for the kitchen where I had the dishes soaking, my husband comes home says nothing to me about the whole house only says something about the kitchen. I am guilty of it too, only being able to focus on what he isn't doing or did wrong completely ignoring all the right. It is so easy to focus on where things are going wrong in our lives because were surround by so much right that it makes the wrong stick out like a sour thumb where sometimes because of pain or sadness or fear, all we can see is the wrong. Through everything that has happened in the last weeks, I can tell you that God provided, God comforted, and I can see Him working. Greg and I are waiting to hear from LifeWay after two interviews, but in the meantime God provided Greg a job waiting tables.We may have had a flood, but we are getting a new kitchen out of it, and very thankful for being renters. God provided the money needed to fix the cars. Greg needed a school book which was over $200 and God provided money for that. God brought healing to Caden and saw him through the reactions to his vaccines and provided insurance for him because of the job loss. Through that insurance he was retested and has 20/20 vision. God not only provided us with the financial needs to be able to put our dog down, but brought us overwhelming peace and comfort. God provided through my job the ability to see a Doctor for the dizziness and get medication needed at no cost.
I could sit here and allow myself to be put in a whole and feel sorry for myself and ask why does all this have to happen to me. Why did I have to loose my daughter, why can't I get pregnant again, why does my husband have to loose his job right before Christmas and so on. But none of that will do any good. I cling to the hope God gives me, the peace and comfort He gives me and in return am filled with the joy He gives me. Being thankful that I have a beautiful Son and amazing husband, a great church family and group of friends. I am thankful I don't get what i deserve, cause what I deserve is death. God spared me the punishment of my sins, and didn't just leave me here to face this world on my own. This place is not my home I am merely passing through. Its like were all waiting in a waiting room sometimes its only a few minutes or it could be a hundred years. We've been waiting so long we met people, built lives for ourselves, built relationships, but were still waiting for our appointment. None of us our promised tomorrow, and this world can brake our hearts at times I am so blessed to not have to face my waiting alone. Regardless of what my life brings while I'm waiting, He stands there with me, to hold me and pick up the pieces of my broken heart and pick me up when I fall. You might ask well why did He allow me to fall in the first place. As much as I love Caden and wouldn't want to see any harm come to him, I could be standing right beside him and he could trip and fall and get hurt, but I am there to pick him up, hold him and wipe his tears and mend his boo boos. And if he listens I could tell him to be careful so he can avoid the fall. Sometimes we aren't listening to God when He says to be careful, and sometimes heart brake is the result of a lost and fallen world, and the sad truth that appointments come. But praise God it doesn't have to end there, He is there to hold us and mend our boo boos and wipe away our tears. And stand by us while we wait.
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